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micah | 17 | az

i love britt and ocs and im tired

i dont track my url tag


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jakeenglish:

Hi folks. I really hate to do this but im at a loss at this point.

In laymans terms: i cant afford to live. Please go to the link if you want a more extensive explanation.

I moved to toronto to escape the abuse i was experiencing at home and to acquire safety as a trans person. My health has improved so much since living here. This has been a remarkable opportunity for me. The problem is i am still not fully immigrated. At the moment i NEED to go to school if i dont want to get kicked out of the country.

My work permit is going to take up to 6 weeks to process. I have to pay $500 rent and annual $20,000 tuition. I am transferring to college and putting my career on hold so i can have $12,000 tuition instead. I only have one parent supporting me who makes a single income and cannot afford to help. I am looking into getting permanent residency as soon as possible via common law with my supportive partner but this may take up to 2 years to finalize. At this point i cant even consider seeking transition like i thought i was and heavens to betsy i cant afford to seek a therapist for my anxiety or post-traumatic stress disorder anymore.

I have no options. I go to school or i got plucked right back into where i was before. I cannot let this happen. I was abused to the point of attempting suicide several times to escape it. I have grown so much and nothing would hurt me more than to take those steps backwards.

Thank you so much for all the kind words and helping me stay chipper even when im so absofruitly terrified. I owe so much of my stiffened upper lip to the love surrounding me and because of it i believe i can do this. I just have to accept i might not be able to do it alone.

If you have the funds please consider donating to me at catskillshauck@yahoo.com or commissioning me. This goes without saying but no one is obligated to help. A signal boost is enough. Thank you for even reading this and i hope you have a great day.

Apr 19 2014



lesbolution:

reblog if u remember when apple was a FRUIT, kids played OUTSIDE not on their ipads, and decomposing VICTIMS of the BUBONIC plague LITTERED the STREETS



fartgallery:

If you message me, do not put “sorry for wasting your time” or “sorry for bothering you” at the end of your message!!! I’ve seen this way too many times. You are not a waste of my time. You are not a waste of anyone’s time. You are not a waste of time period. Please never say or think that ever again



egberts:

support group for ppl who used to be the same age as their favourite character but then got older



tranxio:

"Oh my god, I’m turning into—a vampire!”

"But how? I didn’t even bite you yet!"

Premature edraculation



davestrider123:

seperate nepeta picture cause I liked how it turned out





8 Accounts of Black People Being Used As Guinea Pigs

feminist-phoenix:

sp0iledbabe:

Gynecology Invented Through The Torture of Black Women

In the 19th century, the father of modern gynecology, J. Marion Sims, conducted his research experiments on enslaved Black women. Sims performed the invasive and torturous procedures without anesthesia. J. Marion Sims’ justification for choosing not to anesthetize his test subjects was that he did not believe Black women felt pain at all. In an 1857 lecture, he stated that it was “not painful enough to justify the trouble”.

The Tuskegee Experiment

The Tuskegee Institute and the Public Health Service began a study of the natural progression of syphilis involving 600 Black men (399 with syphilis, 201 uninfected) in 1932. The infected men involved in the study were never made aware of their condition upon diagnosis and believed they were being treated for “bad blood”. In exchange for their participation, the men received free medical examinations and burial insurance. They were never treated for the disease. These trials went on until 1972 when the study was exposed by The Associated Press. The remaining victims and their family members won a $10,000,000 reparations settlement which guaranteed them lifetime health coverage and burial insurance.

The Pellagra Incident
Pellagra is an ailment commonly caused by a lack of niacin (vitamin B-13) in the human diet. The symptoms include skin lesions, sunlight sensitivity, dementia and ends in death. At the turn of the twentieth century, millions of people in the United States died from this disease. Scientists claimed that the cause of the disease was a toxin found in corn. In 1915, the U.S. Surgeon General ordered government funded experiments on Black prisoners afflicted with pellagra. Poor diet and niacin deficiency was found to be the cause. However, these life-saving findings were not released to the public until 1935 because the majority of Pellagra-induced deaths affected Black communities.

The Ebb Cade Experiment

In 1945, African-American Ebb Cade, a 53-year-old truck driver, was secretly injected with plutonium, the substance used to make nuclear bombs. After breaking several of his bones in automotible accident, he was rushed to the emergency room. Unbeknownst to Ebb Cade, he was in the care of doctors that were also U.S. Atomic Agency employees. For six months, he was held in the hospital under the belief that they were treating his injuries. During that time, he was injected with more than 40 times the amount of plutonium an average person is exposed to in a lifetime. The doctors and researchers collected bone samples and extracted 15 teeth to monitor the effects of his exposure. Ebb Cade grew suspicious of his broken-bone treatments and escaped from the hospital. Unfortunately, Cade suffered from the brutal effects of intense radiation until he died from heart failure eight years later at the age of 61.

Weaponized Mosquito Experiment

In the early 1950′s, the United States government conducted an experiment to see if mosquitoes could be weaponized. The CIA and the U.S. military released nearly a half million mosquitoes carrying  yellow fever and dengue fever viruses into several Black communities in Florida. In the predominantly Black community of Avon Park, dozens of Black people became ill, eight dying as a result of this government-issued mosquito attack.

Infants Injected With Test Drugs In Los Angeles

In June 1990, more than 1500 six-month old Black and Hispanic babies in Los Angeles were given what seemed to be a standard measles vaccination. The parents were not told that this particular vaccine, Edmonston Zagreb measles vaccine (EZ), was still in its research phase and not approved by the FDA. The EZ vaccine already had a reputation in Senegal, Guinea Bissau and Haiti, triggering an increased death rate among infant girls, most not living past the age of two. The Center for Disease Control would later confess that the infants were injected with an experimental vaccination without their parent’s knowledge. Presently, it is believed that many of these families are still unaware that their babies were used as guinea pigs.

The Toxic Sludge Experiment of Baltimore and St. Louis

In the year 2000, Federally funded researchers from John Hopkins University, the EPA, HUD, The Kennedy Krieger Institute and Department of Agriculture spread sludge from a sewage treatment plant on the lawns of nine low-income families, and a vacant lot in Baltimore and East St. Louis.  The families and residents were told the sludge was safe and not informed about the toxic mixture of human and industrial waste the sludge contained. The research was conducted to see if the toxic waste absorbed into the water supply could effectively reduce lead levels in children.

Children Forcibly Vaccinated in Chad

In December 2012, at least 500 children in Gouro, Chad were forcibly given the MenAfriVac during school resulting in dangerous side effects including convulsions, and paralysis. Parents were not notified of any plans to vaccination their children at school and parental consent was never requested. The forced vaccinations were part of an aggressive healthcare initiative sponsored by several internationally revered organizations including the Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation, the World Health Organization and UNICEF.

One more thing to hate this fucking country for

I just….I have no words to properly encapsulate my disgust and horror







emphasisonthehomo:

Queer subtext in media is nice and all, but have you considered:

  • Including actual queer characters instead of vague metaphors for queer characters.


little-yogi:

It’s a cute little thing though.



foxyshy:

so let me get this straight. anti-choicers took $500,000 dollars worth of pennies and sealed them in a glass case as a “memorial” to “victims” of abortion. i’m going to say that again. these people have locked away $500,000 dollars as a “tribute” to dead blobs of cells instead of donating that money to actual living breathing children who don’t have basic necessities or homes.

anti-choicers are incredible





xekstrin:

a story about a clan of werewolves where only the women turn into werewolves due to an ancient curse

and a trans girl sobbing with relief and happiness the first full moon of her thirteenth birthday, when she finally transforms